Elise's Retreat Experience

After completing Day 2 of my inner child work on a recent retreat, I found myself at an emotional edge I hadn’t felt in years. I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror — only at the add-on parts: my earring, my necklace. Anything but my own eyes. I wanted to escape. I was restless.

Having recently quit substances after 32 years of use, I was nine weeks clean — and in a dangerous zone. School holidays, isolation, unemployment, PTSD — all the old triggers were present. And with them, the urge to numb. A smoke would have felt like a lifeline… but I didn’t reach for it.

During the heart opening session, I became aware of my body’s energy field. My chakras showed as dim, dark, low vibration. But as kind words were spoken and gentle spinal flow touch was applied, something shifted. Suddenly, a bright, iridescent light beamed through my third eye and crown chakra. Layer upon layer, it stacked high — angel wings fluttered around me. I saw women, priestesses in flowing robes, encircling me. My hands began to flutter — I could feel my own wings. Feathers. Then, through the beam of light, a large white dove descended into my chest. I felt a deep warmth, a heaviness entering my heart space. I recognized it immediately. I had seen this same pure white dove once before, calmly resting in my backyard bird bath after a difficult time. This time, it had come home — into me.

I remembered a similar vision from a retreat in May, where angel wings hovered above and around me. That memory, now confirmed and embodied, returned with force and grace.

In that sacred moment, I also returned to a childhood memory — sitting on my Mas’ lap at the piano, her “little one,” singing a melody together. I could feel the ivory keys under my fingers. I could hear the rhythm. I came home to myself. To my inner child.

And from that place… I sang.

I didn’t feel the urge to use. I didn’t feel the pull of addiction. I felt light, joyful, and free for the first time in 45 years.

In Gratitude

To the women, the angels, the energy workers and guides — both seen and unseen — who have supported me on this journey: thank you. Your presence and compassion have helped guide me back to myself.

This testimony is a declaration of my healing, a reclaiming of my spirit, and a reminder that true transformation is possible.

I am home.I am free.I am singing again.

❤️🕊️

To Jodie —

Over the last three years, you have completely transformed my life.

You’ve held me through some of the darkest chapters—helping me break free from 32 years of drug addiction, guiding me through a relationship marked by domestic violence, and walking beside me as I supported my daughter through her journey with autism.

Through Spinal Flow, land clearings, and your retreats, you’ve helped me find myself again—not just as a mother, but as a woman, and a soul.

Because of you, I now live clean.

Because of you, I now work for the

first time in my life—in a role that lights me up and connects me to purpose.

Because of you, I know peace.

No words will ever fully express the wisdom, power, and divine gift you carry. You were born for this. You don’t just do the work—you are the work. And I am living proof of what’s possible when someone is held by a practitioner like you.

From the bottom of my heart—thank you.

You’ve changed my life.

🖤